Familiarity

We all do it, don’t we?
Falling back into old habits, old routines.

Things that we know are not good for us. Things that we know hold the power to destroy us.
Or simply things that just don’t make sense anymore.

More often than not, we know exactly what we are doing. No one is a fool here. We always have some sense of awareness about our actions.

And actions have consequences.

We know that. We all know that.
So then why do we do it? Why do we go down that treacherous road? We’ve been there plenty times before. There’s nothing new to find anymore.

Maybe that’s the point? We are familiar with what to expect, and so we rush back to the land of nostalgia. We promise that we’ll take just a whiff to reminisce about the life gone by.

But it’s not that simple. It never is.
Everything comes rushing back. The good, the bad and the ugly. And then it hits you.

You start to remember why you left in the first place. There’s nothing new to find here, you tell yourself, as if its a new found realisation that only you could have come up with.

You are in the middle of nowhere, trying to claw your way out of this mess all over again. How did you end up here again, you ask yourself? Why is this road still here? Why isn’t it sealed shut? Why am I even allowed back here? Nothing makes sense anymore.

But you recall how hard it was to get out of here the first time around. And the second. And the third. And all the times that came after that.

You make a vow never to return. You put padlocks and barbed wires around the entry, promising to be stronger than before.

And you know what? One of these days, you will be stronger. This road will be nothing more than a distant memory to you, and you’d be living in a happier land with the ones you love, the ones who love you right back.

Sure right now it seems impossible. But nothing ever really is.

Life is full of possibilities. We need to remember that.

Change can be scary, and growth can be a daunting task. But it is the way forward. To greener pastures and to beautiful sights.

Familiarity is a comfort zone you refuse to leave right now. But as a wonderful saying goes:

“Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.”

– J

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